Monday, February 15, 2010

Back to Work

Wow, has it been six weeks already?! I can't believe Austin is six weeks old today, but what's really getting me is the fact that I have to go back to work tomorrow. A few weeks ago, I was SOOO ready to go back. Today...not so much. I have already cried today just thinking about having to leave him tomorrow. Even though we have our tough (fussy) moments during the day, it has been so great spending every day with him and bonding with him. We know each other so well now and I'm already dreading not spending all day tomorrow with him. But it has to be done and I know I'll get through it. I'm not the first mom to have to leave their child at daycare so I know it can be done :)

Austin is growing so much every day! He is getting more of a personality and has started making lots of oooh and aahh sounds. He loves to hear the sound of his voice (and so does Mommy of course!), and when he's in a really good mood, he'll just sit there and "talk" to himself. He has been making smiley faces, although I don't think he really smiled for the first time until Saturday. We had professional pictures taken of him on Saturday and he lit up and smiled so big during his photo shoot!! Luckily, I think the photographer got a picture of him as he was smiling so I'm really excited to see the proofs.

He makes the cutest pouty face that just melts my heart!! Sometimes I look at his face and it's almost as if I'm looking at our 4D ultrasound pictures from so long ago. It's the exact same face I saw then, which is so amazing to me. He's got a case of baby acne right now and I'm hoping that it goes away soon. It started around four weeks and I've read it could stick around for a few months. I really hope that it clears up sooner than that!! His really isn't that bad though and could be much worse, but I do miss that pretty, smooth face!

We have been having some trouble getting him to sleep between about 10pm and 2am. For some reason, he is wide awake at this time and is usually pretty fussy. He doesn't sleep much during the day so I think he is just so exhausted and ill from no sleep that he gets fussy at night. Of course, the more he fusses, the longer he is awake and it seems to be this never ending cycle!! I read the book "Babywise" on Saturday and so we have started trying to get him on a schedule and using the book as a guide. I'm not sure how well it is going to work for us since we are already six weeks in, or how much I agree with some of the things it teaches you to do, but two nights into this "sleep training", he slept for seven hours straight from 9pm to 4am!! So, I guess we're doing pretty good so far!! If he had gone to sleep a few hours later, he would have slept through the night!!

I'm a little apprehensive about pumping at work tomorrow! We want to continue giving him breast milk as long as possible, so I have to continue pumping during the day to keep my milk supply up and have food for him the next day at day care. I'm just nervous I won't have enough milk to give him! We are still supplementing with formula when we have to so I know that we have a back-up in place. I just hope that I am able to pump enough during the day to feed him the next day. I believe my building has a private "Mother's Room" that I can use, but I know it will take some time to get used to having to leave my desk a few times during the day to go pump in a strange and unfamiliar place. But once again, other mom's have had to do it so I'm sure I'll find a way to manage.

It's just so hard to believe how different our lives were just six weeks ago. They say parenthood changes your lives, but I don't think there is any way to prepare yourself for just how much your lives will change. Just sitting down for an hour and watching your favorite show each week is tough (thank goodness for DVR!). I think that we have done a good job of adjusting though. Once we get the sleep thing under control and get into a good daily routine, things will get so much easier. A few weeks ago I was convinced I would never do this again. Today, I feel right the opposite (just not any time soon!).

Now a quick update on life outside of Austin - our friends Scott and Beth Ann are getting married next month and since Justin and I are both in the wedding, we have lots to do to prepare! I have GOT to get back into shape for one thing! I have lost all the pregnancy pounds, but that doesn't mean there isn't still a little belly jiggle going on! I started Jillian Michaels "30 Day Shred" DVD workout today (yes, I'll be very sore tomorrow but at least I made it through and didn't quit!) and am hoping to get back into the gym soon. We have a few showers for them coming up and we're going to the beach in March for a joint bachelor/bachelorette weekend (swimsuit...yikes!). Then, the wedding is March 27! We are so excited to be a part of their big day - let's just hope my dress fits!

Nikki is still in the middle of her chemo treatment and found out that her insurance really DID approve the clinical study she was going to participate in. Because of human error, she missed out on the opportunity to participate in it. I have always believed that everything happens for a reason...maybe we'll call that human error "divine intervention". Please keep her in your prayers as she has another chemo treatment tomorrow.

I hope everyone had a great weekend and enjoyed the snow!! Please keep me in your thoughts will be a tough day!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

4 Weeks in Pictures

Daddy checking him out

Weighing in at 8lbs 12oz

Getting his first bath!

His first paci that Mom and Dad did not want to give him!

Uncle Keith and Aunt Jenn

Getting a bottle from Daddy

Uncle Scottie and Aunt Beth Ann

Aunt Jenn

I could snuggle with him all day!

Ahhh, life is tough.. :)

Monday, February 1, 2010

4 Weeks Already?!

Four weeks ago at this very moment, I had just begun my pushing journey. In less than two hours, my little man would make it into the world. It's hard to believe how fast these last four weeks have gone by. I won't say that they have been easy, but they have been fun and exciting. I will be going back to work in two weeks, and I was really afraid that I would be dreading going back to work and that six weeks wouldn't be enough time off. I will say that thought changed about two weeks ago!! As much as I love being with Austin all day, I am very ready to have the responsibility taken off of me for nine hours of the day. I know that first day away from him will be very hard, but I need a break!! I welcome the weekends when Justin is home all day and is able to share the parenting duties with me. What am I saying?? I welcome 5:00 when he gets off of work and comes home to help me!!

This past weekend my mom came into town on Saturday and spent the night with us. Fortunately for us, she kept Austin in her room that night and took the middle of the night feedings so that Justin and I could catch up on some sleep. We slept great, and even though I still had to wake up during the night to pump, it was awesome and a much needed break. Thanks again, Mom! One day, maybe I can return that favor for my grand-baby!

Austin is GROWING so fast!! He went to the doctor when he was 2.5 weeks old and was already weighing 9lbs 7oz!! He gained almost a pound since birth and the doctor was so excited about how much he was growing and eating. The little man is an EATER for sure! I can hardly keep up with his appetite! Sometimes he stops at 3oz and other times he can knock back 5+!! I can't wait to see what he weighs at his two month appointment. He will start getting his vaccinations then...something Mommy does not look forward to!! I am dreading watching him get stuck over and over again and hearing him cry! :(

The nursing has gotten better over the last two weeks or so. It's not hurting as bad so I think I have healed from the damage he did early on with his bad latch, and I also think that his latch is correcting itself. Our biggest complaint with breast feeding is that you have no idea how much he is getting. Sometimes he will nurse for 45+ minutes, then take two ounces from a bottle of milk that I have pumped!! So either he has a massive appetite, or he's not getting as much as he needs in one sitting. I will continue pumping all the time when I go back to work, but I'm not sure if I will continue nursing him. Maybe once or twice at night but there definitely won't be enough time in the mornings since he is a slow nurser and a lingerer :)

I still have very emotional days, where I just cry for no apparent reason. I'll be glad when the hormones settle back down! It's getting better though and I'm just so happy! Austin brightens my day and I love seeing his little grin and laughing at all the funny faces he makes! Even his cry makes me smile! He has this one cry that is just the most pitiful sound you have ever heard. It's basically his whiny cry and it makes Justin and I laugh every time because he just sounds so pitiful!! It's really sweet and I wish I could bottle up that sound and keep it forever!

Well, I guess that's all I have for now. Please keep my friend Nikki in your prayers. The insurance company denied her participating in the clinical trial so now she is back on an old chemo cocktail that she has taken before. Her first tests showed that her numbers had gone way down, so hopefully this chemo will do it's job again!!

Have a great week and stay warm!!

I love this little outfit!

So sweet...

Big yawn!!

Sprawled out...loving life!

I can't get enough of this sweet little face!